Bobby Valentino- Tell me Lyfe Jennings- Must be nice David Banner- Play Lloyd Banks feat. Avant- Karma Memphis Bleek feat. Donell Jones- i wanna love you Rozwell- Only wanna be with you Goo Goo Dolls- Black Balloon
Moving on... why can't there be a button in our brain that we can simply press to erase all unwanted memories or information? wouldn't that be cool? i'm feeling good though, seriously, its a new feeling that i'm experiencing again, i'm free to do whatever, buy whatever, and look at whoever as well! :) without having to worry about someone else.. i'm sure there will be highs and lows for me in the coming months, but right now i feel good, i feel re-energized, just trying to keep my mind and body busy so i can just fall asleep by the time i get home, its been working lately but i'm getting tired :), i work out everyday and if ever anybody is doing something i usually tag along...
thanks to everyone for their suppor and care, although those people probably won't even read this entry :)
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i got a new phone! my mom got a free phone from Globe (telecom service provider) because of her usage and used it for awhile but decided she didn't like it cuz she couldn't see the letter, she's getting old, so we went to this mall and traded in my phone for a lower model phone that suited my mom's needs, namily a phone with large fonts, a bright screen, and a send to list option.. and since i traded in my phone i got my mom's phone! saweet!
Change its funny how your life can change in the blink of an eye.. i know mine has.. was a tough and interesting week that just passed, got new vision and got a new lease on life i guess at the same time, after almost 4 years, cel and i are through, she said she wasn't happy in the relationship anymore and was just trying to make it work cuz she was making me happy, we broke up last saturday night and then the following day i find out from her friend that she is with another guy already.. i harbor no ill will towards her, the almost four years we shared were great and it taught me a lot about love, relationships, and myself.. i guess what i couldn't give her she found in someone else, maybe she'll be happy with him and maybe she won't but that's no longer my concern, i guess now its back to me, myself, and i.. that's guna be a hard transition i guess cuz i was so used to putting someone else ahead of me, but i know things will turn out for the best, God's got his plans and i never doubt them, may take awhile but i'll see why all this happened and understand it and appreciate it better in time..
i guess its a new beginning, its guna be hard i know that, i kind of just wish i could wipe my memory clean and start with a new slate, easier said than done but i'll manage.. i guess like my newly surgically lasered eyes :) my life like my vision will become clearer day by day until both will be at their best.. all i can do now is take a deep breath and jump into whatever comes along the way! wish me luck!
